Of Pen and Paper

When it comes to writing our different stories there are many methods people undergo to help the creative flow be just that, unblocked. For some recording their thoughts in various voice catching devices can help keep up with their stream of consciousness. Others write as much out through apps on their phones as possible because they always have it close at hand and can be certain to catch their ideas before they fade away. For myself, it has always been a place of pen and paper first, which is then transferred over to my laptop later on.

I am a very tactile person by nature. I learn best with a combination of visual and hands on instructions. I’m also one of those people who can’t stomach certain foods due to texture alone. Sorry mushrooms, you have great flavor, but I just can’t handle food that bounces in my mouth! 😅 I’m looking at you too Octopus!

So, I suppose it shouldn’t be that surprising the one of the ways that helps me connect to my creativity is when I can have a tactile focal point. And it’s not just any old combination of writing utensil plus pad of paper either. I am that weirdo who will geek out over the Precise V5 Pilot pens with that super smooth flowing ink. It makes me feel like a calligrapher with cheats on. 😂 And then comes the preferred notebook, either leather of faux-leather bound with that good quality floppiness in your hands which helps it lay flat on the desk. Bonus points if there is a ribbon inside to help me flip back to my spot with ease.

There is just something about feeling the weight of the pen in my hand, the drag of it across a page that looses a glossy pristine line. The slightest crinkling sound of paper as my hand brushes over it, and the deft scrip scrap of each hastily jotted word etched into the book’s fibers as my fingers battle to keep pace with the buzzing world within my mind. And don’t even get me started on the comforting smell of the pages, like cousins to my old friends wedged tightly on each bookshelf. There’s a sense of connection I experience with each author and poet that has gone before me. All these thoughts and sensations swirl together as a faint canopy of comfort over my mind and body when I write this way. Really, this is the first time I’ve truly put the feeling to words, it’s always just been a part of me that I was only partially aware of its depth.

Beyond the artistic rendering, there is a more literal and practical approach as to why I find this format of writing most conducive to my success. I have mentioned briefly before my Dyslexia. For those who don’t know what that it is, Dyslexia is defined as: a condition of neurodevelopmental origin that mainly affects the ease with which a person reads, writes, and spells, typically recognized as a specific learning disorder in children.

In layman’s terms it can make writing and reading difficult, along with processing through jumbled up inner thoughts. Now of course, this is a very simplified definition as there are many more facets to Dyslexia. But for the sake of this post just know that a common feature with Dyslexia is that tendency to have a mass disorganization of thoughts and a ton of them bouncing about inside all the time. People may find it hard to comprehend that a Dyslexic person would be able to write books with all of that, but I would like to firstly offer that if you looked into it you’d be quite shocked to discover how many authors out there rest somewhere within the Dyslexic spectrum (that and other neurodivergent variances).
I know this is likely a thought process I will hit on multiple times as I blog, but I feel it’s important to always keep in mind the beauties of neurodiversity alongside the difficulties.
All that build up to say, the biggest reason why I am a paper and pen gal with writing is because there is this strange anchoring effect I experience when I write this way. It forces me to take into consideration my penmanship and feels a bit like I’m exercising my drawing muscle so that it funnels my thoughts down into really living out the story as I’m writing it. And the more that I can be in the moment of my writing the better I will be at helping readers feel the full depth of emotions, sights, sounds, etc. that my book is currently undergoing.
But Tiffany, why the picture at the start then?
Welp, that would be the other side of this coin. There are some drawbacks to writing my stories first in my notebooks. One of which is when you take a drink of water only to accidentally spill some on your pages. Which then causes the ink to run. Then you get the joyous battle of attempting to translate your own work. You’d think it wouldn’t be too hard since I wrote it myself, but I have this super fun thing where I completely forget words I’ve written if I step away from them for any period of time. 🙃 These situations have also trained me of the importance of having your stories backed up in multiple places. 😅
I may be making extra work for myself by writing with pen and paper to only have to eventually transfer it over to my computer later on. It may make things a bit more precarious with things getting easily lost or destroyed. But at the end of the day, I’m going to remain that pen and paper gal through and through!